Admittance | A Medium Series | Episode 7 | Transactional

Transitioning out of the Transactional

I used to use people, places, and thing but it only made me hurt myself even more. A spiritual undertaking that taught me how transactional I was as a person, yet how okay it is to be that way. And most importantly, being better with others and myself.

I used to be transactional, to the point where I was TRAN$$$@CTIONAL.

And that made sense given my experiences.

Because I needed protection, from people, places, and things.

I didn’t have the typical childhood where I could be the type of person I wanted to be with the nurturing support of my parents.

But I knew where I wanted to go, if I didn’t want to die.

By making decisions that were useful and bolstered my ego.

So I saw life as a question of survival, and I was a character in a video game.

And I needed to have the best items…

So I felt as if all I was meant to do was use people, places, and things to level up my character.